How do you handle pain ? The pain of others? The pain of friends, loves ones, ones you cherish?
Do you cry when you hear sad news?
Do you feel like the world around you is missing something, is messing around?
What do you do when someone tells you that their world just crashed down?
I stay strong.
And then I cried.
I did not know why.
I cried for the loss.
I cried for my friend.
For the news that no mum or dad wants to hear
For the news that no brother or sister wants to listen to
I feel so helpless.
“Our sky turning dark.”
How I wish nobody would have to write this one day
How I wish I could have the words, I could know what to do, how to ease her pain
But I can only imagine it
For every angel
For every goodbye before the time
I wonder how you can survive
How you can live with such deep pain inside your chest
How you can stay up, on your feet, in the dark
With emptiness crawling to catch your breath
I wonder how people dealt with my pain at a time when I could not see anything else than dark clouds over my head
I wonder how they felt when my world was upside down
I wish I could remember the words they told me to help me feel a bit better, a bit safe
I wish I could do more than just pray
And send love
I wish I could take the pain away, change the deal, asked God to get rid of yesterday
I wish I can face life and say “you are fucking crazy to play with people lives this way”
I wish I can…