Motherhood sad song

Copyright Marie Kléber

I dreamt of a life which could never be ours
Just so I could keep going

With you by my side
So many mixed feelings

When we are together
My weaknesses taking all the place

We are creating something out of love
It should be beautiful
It’s messy most of the time

I wish I could be the mum I dreamt of
For you
But I am just a pale copy of it
Full of insecurities
Cracks

With my hypersensitivity taking over
I feel out of place

Even my love seems weak
When I can’t make your feel better
When I let all my anger out for nothing
When I lose track of you

Innocent
In need of me

So beautiful
In your own way

How could I take good care of you
When I forget to look after myself so often

I wonder…

Why so many people want kids they can’t have
And me
Having you
Screwing it up most of the time…

But still I am fighting back
Still believing in something greater
Still thinking that maybe you’ll be able to sort out things
What’s good for you and what you can let go

Some people will add…
Still doing my best – I can go without it
Or if this is my best, it’s quite sad

23 thoughts on “Motherhood sad song

  1. Sweet-Things September 24, 2019 / 6:36 pm

    This I call life, make the most of it, cope with his limitations and yours and their will still be a future where you can find sun and light

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  2. carrie4myself September 24, 2019 / 10:20 pm

    Never easy, but never underestimate what you’re giving him!
    You’re here, taking care of him, may be no the way you wish, but you’re here. Enjoy, cherish every bit even with its up and down.
    Think positive and positive things will happen… 😉
    xxx

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    • Latmospherique September 25, 2019 / 2:09 pm

      Thanks Carrie.
      You’re right. I tend to forget it when I don’t manage things with ease.
      Take care
      xoxo

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  3. ladyfi September 25, 2019 / 6:04 am

    Please don’t beat yourself up… all parents feel this way and I’m sure you are doing a great job.

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  4. Adrienne September 27, 2019 / 12:17 pm

    faire de son mieux et aimer, je crois que c’est le principal 🙂

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    • Latmospherique September 27, 2019 / 5:10 pm

      C’est très juste Adrienne. Pouvoir se remettre en question aussi.
      Merci beaucoup

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  5. TheMomCafe.com September 29, 2019 / 4:35 pm

    Oh, friend, I have been in this place as a parent! You ARE doing the best you can and I always try to remember that truth on those hard days. Be kind and gracious to yourself in those difficult motherhood moments. We all need to let go of feeling like we are failing our kids and realize we are giving them more than we know. Hugs to you, sweet friend!

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    • Latmospherique September 30, 2019 / 5:12 pm

      Thank you so much Chris. Some days are tough, especially the ones where everything seems to go wrong and we seem to lose our sanity.
      Thanks for your words and friendship.
      Always

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  6. Mia Winhertt September 30, 2019 / 3:14 pm

    Just wanting to be there for someone is the biggest form of love. Making sure that you are actually there takes it to another level. Nothing else matters. ❤

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    • Latmospherique September 30, 2019 / 5:11 pm

      You’re so right Mia.
      Thank you for kind words. Always in need of some.
      Take care

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  7. forgottenmeadows September 30, 2019 / 5:13 pm

    this lament for giving more than you can at times tells me what an amazing mom you are…this beautiful raw reflection holds the mirror to mother’s heart but know that as you keep going with its ups and downs you show him humanity and never giving up on love 🙂

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    • Latmospherique October 9, 2019 / 4:50 pm

      Showing him humanity – this is nicely said Neha.
      Thank you so much for your support. Always.

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  8. W.S.Thompson November 14, 2019 / 2:40 am

    Being a mom is hard work. Don’t be so hard on yourself. It’s a learning curve for every women.

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    • Latmospherique November 14, 2019 / 2:53 pm

      Thank you so much for your kind words.
      It’s tough and beautiful, yes!

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  9. soulsmitten2020 February 11, 2020 / 6:48 am

    Wow, we all feel this in so many ways. As a person who’s mother left her at ten years old, believe me when I say, even your simple presence is making more of a difference than you know!

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    • Latmospherique February 11, 2020 / 11:42 am

      Thank you so much for your kind words.
      And welcome here!

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