We knew, in a way
What we wanted
What we wished for
In a way, with nothing coming
To keep us away
For too long
We didn’t know
And it came
Like an unwanted surprise
We didn’t know
What was coming our way
Keeping us apart
Not too long
But enough
To make us wander
Enough time
For emptiness to grow
Our voices lost in day to day routine
Where do we stand between
Family gatherings
Our own familiar dreams
Where do we belong
In this new blueprint?
The end
They told her
Nothing else to be done
The heart is slowly losing the battle
Nastiness can’t compete with death
Day one
A shock
Day two
Reality in motion
Day three
Time to get ready
In a way
A relief
But yet so much left undone
So many words that seal the deal
Of a love that never really existed
Two lives
Too many lies
Two stories
No boundaries
The end
For a new beginning
Without any chance
For forgiveness
A page about to be turned
In darkness always
Day after day
Not knowing when
Trying to get ready to face
The last call of breath
In a way
Peace
Brought by death
Motherhood grace
Never to be conquered
The end
They told her
She’ll not make it to next year
Maybe it’s a chance
After all the mess
We may think we are free. Till we realize we are enchained. By limited thoughts and the choices made.
We are the ones who can change the deal. Every single moment. But are we ready for it? Ready to face the unknown and maybe the disillusion in the eyes of the ones we love?
Is there love when we are trying to make everything fit in a life that can’t hold it? When we are hiding ourselves behind the veil of doubt?
What are we ready to lose? What are we ready to give in?
Where is the truth between the thin line of two lives we are knitting together so we don’t have to choose, only to hope it would last ?
Is love enough to hold us tight?
This is a strange time. I was not prepared to it. To be true at first I was afraid at the thought of staying home alone with my son. You may know, cause you are reading me for some time now, that motherhood is not that intuitive to me. It’s a challenging experience, a process, a road I took seven years ago not knowing at all what it was about.
This is a strange time, full of emotions going everywhere, taking all the place. There is joy and fear, love and doubts, wonderful suprises, chaotic moments, cries, laughs, so many ups, so many downs too.
It’s not really about being at home, nor about being separated from others, it’s really about finding our peace, our truth inside, it’s about listening to our inner voice, knowing what make sense, to us, it’s about learning who we are, expressing our needs. It’s an introspection, a time out of time, time to grow – we grow when we struggle! It’s part of the deal too!
And you, how are you living it? Is it tough? Or quite easy? How would you define it?
We are part of the same network
Blood linking us together
Your pain is not mine
And yet…
It’s written in my DNA
We’re familly
This special bond
Many pains brought together
And never we thought
It could be different
It’s time
To walk alone
No guilt in letting go
Of a story untold
No guilt in leaving
Someone ought to break
The invisible link
Of hardships
We can’t carry on
Letting the past decide
Of our future
It’s time
For each one of us
To make the choice
Of better tomorrows
May we bring forgivness
Inside
Whathever we may feel
Whathever our scars
We are the only ones
With the power
To heal each other’s wounds
By choosing ourselves
Our own growth
Our own pace
The freedom to be
Our own savior
Our best mate
Finding outside the lineage
Our own truth
Our voice
Hidden behind the veil of distress
Rewriting the story
Of an unknown love
As sacred as gold
Together since…
And yet I thougt
I could give you away
Precious gift
So tiny
Inside my belly
My steps
Frozen
My heart
Broken
A story
Of guilt
And love
Rewriting the story
So you can understand
Where you come from
Your smile
Like millions of stars brushing the sky
Our special bond
Between silver, teal and gold
Days without
With pain and anger
And days spent looking at the light blue sky
Talking to angels
Reading stories that never end
Rejoicing in saying “thank you”
Even for the unknown
Only one truth
Your birth and mine
Same heartbeat
Inside
