Matinal heart

20190214_172402Never forget the dream
One day memory
Of a love without boundaries
Free
Secure
And wild
A love that you could only feel
With your whole heart
Open to magic

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Yesterday, now and tomorrow

Copyright Marie Kléber

I can tell you everything

The good, the bad, the worst
The blue, the grey, the white
The bright mornings and the dark skies

I can tell you my ups, my downs
My doubts, my fears, my joys

I can tell you all there is
And all there was
Dreams and nightmares

I can cry and you won’t say
These ugly words that I despise

I can tell you everything
And yet I don’t wish to tell you everything

Not that you can’t hear it
Just that I want to protect us from
A life that does not belong to now
Remains of scars, shots of pain

We belong to today and tomorrow
We are writing a far better story
Than the ones before
One that is true, loving, peaceful
One that put a smile on our faces
When we look at each other

I don’t want the chaos anymore
I don’t want to feel trapped in emotions
I don’t want us to be all about this
The memories to unfold
The fears to go over
The wounds to mend

I want life and happiness
Blessings to count every day
Joy and projects to share
I don’t want anything messy between you and me

So know if I don’t tell you everything
It is just my way to say that you mean the world to me

My wishes for you

Crédit Marie Kléber

Wishes are flying all over the place
Here and there
Wishes of peace, light, love and wellness

I wish you this and more
I wish you a creative year
A year of words, sunny views on the fields of your dreams

A year of being you
You with your scars and your downs
Your moments of grace

A year of being fully present to the moment
Ready to embrace the new
To let go of all the things that don’t serve you anymore

A year of love
Loving you
And saying “I love you”

Knowing deep down that you are beautiful
Love and loving
And loveable if you still doubt it

I wish you a wonderful year!
Stay blessed my friends and thank you for being part of this wonderful journey.

You & Me – The chaos & The grace – Darkness and Love again…

Copyright Marie Kléber

You were at the beginning of all time.

I used to pray and laugh and feel blessed. I used to talk to you. Day and night. I used to find solace when I turned my face towards you and you would smile back.

And then I lose track…

I thought you could be contained. In a religion. In a group. I looked for you in every place, every space. What happened? I don’t know. I started listening to other voices. It was the beginning of a search that took me to the edge. Deep darkness.

It felt like everything I knew was gone.

It felt like you were gone.

I read and prayed. I was lost. I lied to myself so many times. I thought I could catch you. In a place. In a book. Nonsense.

I tried and tried. I got tired, took roads which were not for me to walk. I tried to fit in. Fit in a mess that wasn’t mine. Fit in thoughts that I’d not agree with.

I cried.

I called for you. I shouted at you. Why? Why? Why?

Nightmares would last and you were nowhere to be found.

And then, one day, I decided to let go. I could not walk anymore. I could not breathe anymore. I started to remember the girl I was once.

And you were there. You never left. You just waited for me to be ready to see you again.

You were in the silence of my heart. And the fragrance of my soul.

A path of love and acceptance

Copyright Marie Kléber

I am learning that her story is not mine
Still learning
It’s not the easiest part
It is a path of love and acceptance
Of what was
And what is
Of her feelings
And her pain

I felt angry at times
When I was younger
Hearing that she’d rather like to die
It is no lie
I thought cancer would change her
Make her feel more aware of the beauty around
And the past would go
Would let her breath in peace
And live without shadows

I prayed
But it’s not my story
I have no power
It’s not about me
All the love I have can’t change the deal

The past is engraved
In every cell of her body

I am learning to love her as she is
With her memories
Her ghosts
Her idea that life is just a messy road

Trying to protect me
When she says she’d rather like death
Knowing that it’s not against me
It’s just the only space
That could set her free

My Treasure

I was there and yet…

I don’t know how it happened
How love found its way

It seems so easy between us
So natural

What taste had love before?
I don’t remember
No I do. It was harsh and painful
And full of silences

But I believed. I did not want to let go
I did not want to assume that it’s all that I could get
I knew there was something more to it

That this was a pale copy of what love was in real
I fell and I came back to life
I found my way out of the storm

I dreamt of you and you came
I can only rejoice now, feel blessed every hour of every day

Your love changed me
It changed the mother I am
And the friend, the daughter, the sister in me

It is making me stronger, powerful, confident
Our love is my treasure

Connection

Copyright Marie Kléber

It was there, all day long
The urge to be with you
To press my body against yours
Feel your love and power
Take me away from all I know
To a place of sensual bliss

It’s in your eyes
And in the way you look at me

It’s in your hands
And in the way you touch me

It’s in you desire
And in the way it meets mine

It’s in the connection…

Walk by the shore

Copyright Marie Kléber

Take my hand
I’ll show you the world
My world
The empty spaces in my dreams
The heavy clouds in my nights
The happy smiles in my days
The waves crashing against the rocks
You’ll see how beautiful it is
When you stand still and breathe deeply
Knowing there is no other place
You’d like to be
Just there, holding my hand
And saying out loud
To the sky and the sea
To the world and the hearts
That despite all fears
You are free!

A very special day

Copyright Marie Kléber

It happened by surprise. One day, it came and never left.
I had it within me? Maybe.

For what I know it was a simple joy that became my worst nightmare for 4 years. Just at the idea of it, I could feel my body aching and my mind racing. It was the time of the day I’d like to skip, the hour I wanted to erase from the memories.

The first years after that, it was tough. I would find myself hearing voices and feel like crap again.

One day it changed. One day it felt natural. One day I would find solace in it. One day I relalized it was one of my way to say “I love you”.

The day the love of cooking came into my life was a very special day…